stress relief

After a scare, I feel relaxed. Thank God Almighty. I prayed and He came through for me. Strange how so often before I blamed Him for my problems and now He is watching out for me and answering my prayers. I was relieved when I realized that my fears were solved and everything is coming together, despite last night's drama. HOOAH!

I had the immense happiness to hear that I will definately get my MOS and my duty station and have every chance of getting the exact job I want in the military thanks to my connections to certain servicemen. I really am relieved by everything that has come together. I will NOT stand alone from now on. I have my brothers (and sisters) that will always look out for me. I am not afraid of anything. I have the best big brothers that have given me alot more courage. I can't say much about what they do or anything else, due to OPSEC reasons, but I know I would NEVER want to be against these men, especially a great brother that I have been honored with.

I am looking forward to getting my life back, the family support that the Military offers. Ignoramuses say that it is a mistake, that the people I love are fools and "brainwashed." But we are by no means any of that, we realize the politics can be fucked up, that isn't why they and why I will, do what we do. We do it because it is our duty, most of us are military children, who realize the honor and integrity of our Fathers (and some mothers) teachings are the most valuable of all. If you don't grow up with that, maybe you'll never understand.

Anyways, relief floods my body, my brother has given my mind ease, my guy has given my heart peace in the knowledge that I won't have to supress myself any further for him, in fact, he encourages my freedom to be this tough and "badass" army chick. My mother has offered her full support and will not turn her back on me, she has been incredible during all of this, something I did not expect but I am highly grateful for.

Dear God,
Thank you for your kindness. I am grateful for your guidance and answered prayers. Grant me the courage to face any fears I must. You are all loving and all forgiving. I am grateful to be your child again.
Amen

Love, Leah