Enlisting?

Writing letters to Iraq today. Considering my options. I am considering enlisting.  Heavily considering it.

If I were to enlist, then I would have all my worst fears solved in one move. I would have a steady income, be trained to be a Medic, which is what I have wanted for a long time, the kids would be taken care of and get the safety of being involved in something that I can't just get fired from.

My mother told me she'd prefer the Air Force, like my dad, because I would be a legacy. But I have a stronger pull towards the Army. Not only for the fact the Air Force has many, many more rules that must be obeyed, but I have always felt that the AF feels superior to the Army when really, they shouldn't. The Army deals with a wider range of things than the air force does. Anyways, that's not even my point. The point is I'm deeply considering it. And the plan, if I were to enlist, would fall easily into place, so easily in fact, that it seems as though it is something I must do.

My children would stay with my mom, surrounded by my family, my Gram, my uncles and aunts, cousins and their cousins, while I was in basic and AIT. After that, depending on whether I could push my first deployment through right away (this is a big IF) I would want to get my deployment over, come home and be with my kids when they started school. Either living at Landstuhl or Walter Reid, where I would be in that environment. I want to work Trama because I have the skills and the fortitude and iron stomach. I don't puke at the sight of blood or guts. Not many could say that. Not in real life. :) Anyways, if I were to do that, it would simply fall into place. Also, for a few weeks, I'm guarenteed six hours sleep a night, three meals a day that I don't have to cook and even some playing with weapons and rifles. :) This is always fun in my book.

Anyways, it's just an idea, but it is one that seems to be blossoming into a full on wild flower patch. I can see the possibilities. And since the Army has basically abolished most of their stupid rules, like where tattoos can be, like if you can marry enlisted/officer and all that, the world would still be possible for me. As well as getting my own GI Bill to go to college. Hazard pay from deployments would go into a seperate savings account to buy a house and my kids would be taken care of despite the fact that their father isn't a financial aspect. It seems to me that this idea could potentially be something real and good. It is something I must continue to think about, but it would make sense. And luckily I will have the time during the next few months to look into all my options.

But it's high time I did something with my life. And I wanted to join before, almost did in fact, but I went to Canada. Maybe it's time to go back and sign that dotted line that I fled from nearly 5 years ago.