Rant.

I have so much to do and not a lot of time to do it in. Today I'm off to Metrotown to do some errands there with a double-stroller and the kids packed up with premade snacks, lunch and plenty of diapers to go around. I don't really have time to bring them but since no one seems to be able to watch them, I have to make an all day event out of it. Which is fine, because they are mine and I get it. But I really wish people didn't back out of their word. If you say you are going to be able to help, you should actually... oh, I don't know... help. It's ridiculous that I can't depend on anyone but myself, at least not here. Why are all the people I can depend on so fucking far away? Oh... yea, that was my fault. I was an idiot for ever coming to Canada and I can't wait to get the fuck out of here.

I need to get the hell out of dodge. So today I'm going to get a bunch of my concerns answered, stop by the Post-Office for stamps (again, I do this way too much, I think it's averaging on $20/month to send letters to all my Boys in Uniform while they are over in Iraq/Afghanistan. Although, it is nice to be able to write them freely without worrying that I'll hear more about how bad "Soldiers" are.) I can't wait til October 6th comes. That's the day I'm signing my name on that dotted line. That's the day I'm going to get my fresh beginning. I've found redemption and it wears a uniform. It's also my Dad's birthday.

Anyways, I'm out of here. I have too much to do, but I had to wait for the scattered shower to pass. I have a love-hate thing with rain. I love it when it rains and I am feeling down because then I don't have to pretend and I sort of fit in with all the other faces. When it rains and I have to do shit, however, this bothers me. I hate not having a car. First major purchase when I get where I'm goin!