The sky is blue and righteous

The sky is blue and righteous in all directions. The breeze is blowing and the weather is finally warm enough to feel comfortable. I'm wearing a white tshirt, shorts and my black cowboy boots, with my cross around my neck and a smile on my face. I am in a really good mood...


I had a great day. I managed to sleep in for the second time in a row. :) Talked to my Captain all day via yahoo im which I have set to text me instead :) And then of all things, his letter finally arrived. It was awesome to recieve (as it also came at the same time as one of my checks, talk about great timing). The weather is amazing, I got things organized in my house, I feel really good about life.

Today I went to Walmart and got a bunch of groceries, it's true I still have to go to extra foods tomorrow but it's hard to go back and forth from store to store, and walmart is in the same location as my bank, so we just went there. I bought some hair dye because it's the last time I'll really be able to dye it an outlandish colour before I enlist. Then I'm stuck with my natural dark brown lockes for the next four years or so.

Captain's letter was amazing, he talked about the people he works with and about his visit in July and that he thinks I'm smart and beautiful and doing the right thing for my "little family for all the right reasons." It made me smile so much that I read it six times already and I know I'm bound to read it much more than that. It's currently my bookmark in "I love you, Ronnie" which seems fitting since he's the one who told me to get the book. :) He's just so sweet and actually wrote "wink wink" haha. It was so cute. I can't wait for his visit, I'm practically dripping with impatience.

I also spent way less than I expected when I went to the store, even though I bought my prepaid phone card and a calling card so I can call people that I love. I've been talking to an old friend that's known me since I was eleven. It's crazy to know that someone has known me so long. That's almost 12 years! The only person who has known me longer is my brother, for obvious reasons.

I love today. For some reason, everything just feels good. I'm so looking forward to the future. I think God is teaming up with my Daddy and Grandpa to help me out in this big bad world. Even the father of my kids and I aren't arguing at all anymore! I guess, everyone just blames my ex and hey, I'll take it because the truth is, I do too. He totally left me high and dry in this department with a dog and fears. I had to scrounge and find the best way of doing something all on my own and now that I have a plan and hope, plus a job hookup between my enlistment and basic (thank God so many people love me in Jersey still), I honestly think things are getting better. I swear, I just hope it continues this way. Let's hope my ex doesn't try to screw me over about anything else for the time being. End of August, I'm gone, away from him and his life. Off to my second chance, to my kids second chance, to a bigger, better future. No more high school dropouts for me, no more guys that think they are God just because they got lucky in life. No, I want a guy who has worked hard for his life, like Captain.

Oh Captain, my Captain <3 I really like this guy... Fingers crossed it all works out.

Love always,
Leah